When am I going to know what I want to be when I grow up? I don't want to sound whiney or anything, but I'm really struggling with this lately. I had a meltdown last night & I was a wreck. I want to get a job, but I'm tired of adding one more crappy job to the resume and I don't know what I want to do. Sometimes I think something in the medical profession would suit me, or maybe real estate. But all of my interests involve more money and retraining/schooling. That's too overwhelming for me to think about right now since I don't have the finances for something like that. In fact, it's that very overwhelming feeling that stops me from pursuing something new. My mind is just going around in circles with the questions about money, daycare, school, when do I want to have another child, and how will we fit it in with whatever path I've chosen jobwise? It's really hard to be a mom. It's also the greatest thing ever. The hardest thing I'm dealing with is figuring out what I want my purpose to be in this world. Does anyone ever really know, or are all those seemingly well put-together people just a sham?